i may not be the best. i may be misunderstood. i know i cannot be that someone you expected me to be. but i am still me. still that same out-of-tuned key.

i'll keepon playing.




Name:Tan Chee Yang aka Ra|DeR
Gender:Male
Age:21
D.O.B:19/03/1983
Occupation:SAF Officer
E_mail & Friendster:tan_okacha10@yahoo.com.sg
Msn:okacha10@hotmail.com
Icq:91383258

A commissioned officer of SAF who likes outdoor activities.
Like the Sun, Sea and Mountains.
Take pride in what i do,
always believe everything can be done if u put your heart and soul in it.
I am trained not only to do things but
to make things happen so nothing is impossible is all up in ur mind.
Is the effort and the process of learning that counts and not e result.

If ThOu Muz |oVe Me,let |t Be FoR NouGht ExCept FoR |ove's SaKe Only.

my lifeas itis.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Never in my life i feel so hurt before..
Never in my life i wanna avoid the truth..
Never in my life i wanna face this facts..
Never in my life i try to look into this reality..
Wonder what happen?
Until now i can't even accept that the man i most look upon to did this..
The man who give me my life is the man who hurt me and disappoint me the most..
He also hurt the woman who love him the most..
The woman who spend her 35 yrs of her life working and taking care of him n her sons..
He shattered her heart so deep that she often break into tears..
She expects nothing much from the man, only to want his heart back..

0Still the same. 11:45 PM

Monday, August 28, 2006

All this precious moment
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night
I don t know how I found you
I am thankful that I have
Never I have a love so true
To hold to keep to share

In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world
There is no place I've rather be
You are my life my soul my girl
And through it all I know you've come to see
That you are the one till the end

All my friends around me
Say you'll be gone too soon
Baby I'm gona make them see
We'll find out way back home

In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world
There is no place I've rather be
You are my life my soul my girl
And through it all I know you've come to see
That you are the one till the end
You'll always be till the end

0Still the same. 10:27 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Cute and Adorable makes her physically attractive...
Cheerful and bright personality makes her character shines...
Caring and truthful side of her makes her shines among her gender..
She is special and unique in my eyes..
Not much words can really describe about her..
She is none other than my love, Christina.. Lol..
=)

0Still the same. 10:54 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Things changed quickly this time..
Met her last monday and things start to change..
With kissing coming in things become more complex..

"Give me 1 year" she said.

I pondered and thoughts run through..
I agreed..
I have choosen an unseen path.
A path that might lead to sorrow or the one that might lead to happiness..
Let time tell..
Guess i really fall this time...

0Still the same. 12:18 AM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Just back hm from drinking with david.. Ard 6 cans each and i am feeling sleepy now..
Nothing much to say.. but still having doubts abt my future..

Time now 1.09am july 15.. Time to ZzZZz..

0Still the same. 1:11 AM

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Well noone will really read my blog anyway because i nvr really tell much ppl abt this DUSTY site. keke..

Life so far...
Updates.. Loading.....

Pretty much boring and dull. Working as Assistant Engineer at Ship n metal building company.
Almost everyday work except sundays. I like the job scope but i hate the long working hours and the lacking of interesting in my life due to prolong hour facing my bangala and indians worker. Even though so of them are quite cute actually.. Haha..


Bangala:" Foreman! No job ah?"
Me:"Got.."
Bangala:"Got ah? Job many many?"
Me:" Ya.. many many.. Y? U no job ah?"
Bangala:"What no job? No job, Boss many many Fuck.."

PS: When talk to bangala or indian.. must us the key word many many..

Love life... Nothing much to talk abt it. Still the same old stubborn n choosy me when come to this. Is always like this in this game. Pretty much of it.. The one u like don't fancy u n the one u don't fancy like you. Rule of the game.. Don't think so much. What is yours will always be yours.
Dame it!! That is just and excuse for me not to try and make effort.. u DICK!
Hai.. i scared i try to hard will have negative effect.. I scared i don't put in effort i can't win the battle.. what shall i do then?
What actually she wants peepz?
Huh? Who is that she? Well.. i can't say i have just been christinalize.. =X



Time now: 1140pm, 13 july 06.. Cooling n misty night.. n meaning what? Time to get some sleep bonkers.. lol.. Cya stranger. or whoever tom dick or harry who is reading this.. i will be back SOON..

0Still the same. 11:25 PM

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Have u really wonder y r we living alive in this world?
Life..
What is it about actually?
From young is abt study slowly it comes to your adult life you start to work.
Work through day and night. It between all this stagnent life u have u tend to add in some spice to it. Things like your relationship problem, family problem and whatever u can think of.

So life is full of problems.. Evryone got to face it in a different way and a different manner.
But y face it? At the end of the day.. u still have to die when you r old. So y suffer?

Life Sucks.. Loves Suck.. Bascially Everything sucks.. Even tiny little oxygen molecues u breathing sucks. Becasue it keep u ALIVE..

0Still the same. 10:47 PM

tryto understand me.

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key of C. o

try as i may.
i can never explain.

key of D. o

i cant' be somebody.
i'm really not.

key of E. o

i know there's.
some time to change.

key of F. o

everything's changing.
yet i don't feel.
the same.

key of G. o

always caught.
up in circles.
confusion is.
nothing new.

key of A. o

i never believed.
in dreaming.
it never.
got me very far.

key of B. o

i tried.
to find myself.
i always.
get lost.

key of higher C. o

no one see.
me rightly.
i'm always.
a fault.

key of higher D. o

i tried to fly.
away from reality.
but gravity.
pulled me back.

key of higher E. o

still i'll keep on playing.
that same out-of-tune key.
that everybody thought of me.